A letter to the world

This is a letter to you, whoever you may be. For those who do not know me, and that will be changed. For those who thought you knew me, I am sure you will be very surprised in a good way, after you finished reading this letter.

Why am I writing this to you? Hold this question in your mind and allow me introduce myself first.

My name is Ai Ghee, and I'm a your typical white-collared office girl who has been working for a few years after graduating from the university. Sounds almost like someone you knew? Definitely. Yet, the key difference from them is that I'm going through a lot of changes and major transformation in my life, in a good way, right here right NOW.

For those who knew me very well, who knew me a little, or who do not know me at all, let me tell you a little about what kind of person I was in the past; from my perspective.

Sometimes my life seems colourful and exiting, yet a lot of the time, my life seems to at a point where everything just seems gray. Not that I'm super unhappy… or depressed… or sad. I was just un-energized, un-passionated and bored. My to-do list is constantly full, and there're friends I want to see and talk to, places to go, and creativity to express. But it never seems to happen. I can't seem to make it happen.

At the same time, I had often wondered perennially at questions as old as the human kind itself - What is the purpose of life? What am I here for? What am I meant to do?

While I was mulling these with myself, and only to myself, I didn't realize that I was subconsciously shutting myself from the world, family and friends. I believed that I am the only one (or the rare few) who is experiencing this. And that no one would have understood this.

Then again, maybe I am conscious of what I am doing to myself. It's not as if I have no choice. To be utterly and brutally honest with you at an even deeper level, I was fearful.



Fearful of being vulnerable.

Fearful of not appearing strong.

Fearful of being laughed at.



To sum up, scared shit..

I was lost. Screaming silently.

I had looked at others, people who know where they are going, who know what they are doing and how they are arriving… with envy and hopes and wishes that one day I will be there too. 'One day, some day,' I tell myself, and mind you, it was said with a lot of determination.

'One day, some day,' I kept repeating to myself. Yet each day remained the same. Same old, same old.

And I complained all the time why everything is still the same.

Sounds familiar?

Sounds like the me you knew?

Sounds like someone you knew?



Or does it sound like you?



Some of you may be nodding your head to what I am saying, some of you may still be wondering why I am telling you this. I am getting there.

In the last few weeks, I find myself happier, calmer and more loving, to myself and to others… and that have sustained for a relatively long period of time. How did this change come about?

To set the record straight upfront, I didn't meet the love of my life that I have been fantasizing my whole life, I didn't get this exciting this job that I have been dreaming for my whole life, I didn't win the lottery that I have been wishing for my whole life.

There's no real miracle.

It's just simply one of the best-kept secrets in Singapore.

I had experienced a powerful and fundamental change in my perspectives and life. The source of power came from within, from the truth that I've experienced in these last few weeks. From this personal development and life coaching course that I'm taking.

A lot of you must be wondering, 'A personal development and life coaching course? What the &*^%$@# is that?' Some of you may even think that these stuff are for losers.

Well, well, well… welcome to the club! I was one of you, initially!

Y'see, I had just topped my class while doing a graduate diploma last year, I had graduated with honours from the university some years ago, I came from a above average income family, and had a lot more. All the seemingly perfect ingredients to success in life… yet, strangely I felt that life so far has been rather unfulfilling and lacking in meaning.


And life crisis? Have you been through one of those? Those stuff are scary! Ups and downs, ups and downs - in a vicious cycle.

Wearing me out.

Eating me up.

Burdening me down.

I would just like to share that I have been through many of those. Sometimes many times in a year.

Still I had strongly felt that I don't need this. There's nothing wrong with me, I know what I am doing, and I have absolute control over my life.

With such great resistance, you must be wondering, so how did I actually end up taking it? In fact, there's a very interesting but long story behind it that I want to share with you. You can call me or send me an email if you want to find out more - Hey! You got to do some work too, yah? I can promise you that it will be a good story.

And anyway, to cut a real long story short, after experiencing what I've experienced in the course, the result is that I am now able to be aware, accept and acknowledge the good, bad and ugly in my life.

I no longer only embrace the good and resist the bad.

I no longer beat myself up and chastise myself (that's all happening in my mind - in the past).

I simply just take responsibility, put in the commitment and take corrective action, to do what I need to do, not what I feel like doing.

I find myself arguing less, blaming less, complaining less, denying less, giving excuses less, finding fault less, and feeling guilty less.

Much less.

Life for me has taken a wonderful turn. I've learnt to open up to people in an enthusiastic, passionate, truthful, genuine, and expressive way. And my environment (meaning my family, friends, colleagues and even strangers) responded to me in a similar way.

I find myself being BIG and living BIG. No longer was I feeling small.

Bear in mind that this is only a start for me, and I am very excited to see what in store for me. Life suddenly became this wonderful adventure with all sorts of wonderful possibilities for me.


Like what you read so far?




Really?





That's wonderful.

First, I want to thank you for your patience and your generosity with your time in reading this.

Now, I am announcing to the world that I am inviting you to my life.

How? One way is to go for the preview of the course: Knowing - A transformational experience (www.differworld.com) that I had just shared with you. It's on every Tuesday, 7pm, Stamford House. Let me know, and I promise to be there with you at that session.

And in case you are still wondering, considering and assessing, I would just like to suggest that you suspend these thoughts off for a while - do yourself a favor and give yourself a chance - just email me anyway! I really look forward to hear from you.



Your friend.